Friday, July 24, 2009
i'm supposed to go camping with tyler today. i decided that i would take my chemistry stuff with me and we could work it out. and that i would meet with a tutor online monday when we got home. but now that's not going to happen. my dad is really upset about some things that are going on at home, and i'm a big part of it. i was just talking to him online while he is at work, and now i'm crying because of it. i could run away from it and leave this weekend. but i know the whole time i'm gone all i'm going to be doing is thinking about what is going on at home. so i will stay. and i will cry. and i will deal with the wrath. i try to find happiness in all of this. and when i finally find some, something else happens. i can hardly handle myself anymore.
