this world is ours - let's make it beautiful

i loved this movie, and i recommend it to everyone. it's funny, and sad, but it displays such a fantastic message, and a message of true heroism, love and friendship!!! tomorrow is confessions of a shopaholic.

i am now the proud owner of adobe cs4, thanks to xavier ibarra! he got it for me a long time ago, and we never got around to installing it. so last night when he came over to hang out, he installed it for me, and now it's mine! i just have to figure out what each tool does. that will be easier said than done, but it's going to be a fun ride.

one of my all time favorite quotes:

"Never let the fear of striking out, keep you from playing the game."

this one wasn't what i expected to post, by any means, but while searching for the quote for today, i came across it, and it made me giggle, that's enough of a reason for me!

"God gave men both a penis and a brain, but unfortunately not enough blood supply to run both at the same time."

"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter."
-Martin Luther King, Jr.

it's thursday before the 4th of july weekend, and i don't really think anyone has plans? i was invited to go watch some fireworks with bethany & ash tomorrow, but...i don't know. i just have so many mixed emotions about all of that right now. i'm just having such a hard time understanding it all, and taking it all in. it's just so sad to me, it seriously breaks my heart. but, yea. so i don't know. my dad talked about having a little barbeque thing here this weekend, sometime. we will invite my aunt, and maybe xavier, i dunno who else yet, we haven't really talked about it. softball is cancelled though, which is kinda sad, except not? haha. everyone (well ALMOST everyone) has the day off tomorrow, so it will be cool to just hang out and relax all weekend. i've been really trying to help dad out with stuff around here. it's the least i can do, seeing as i can't find any outside employment.

my stupid macbook is falling apart, it's driving me nuts. the stupid cd-rom drive died this morning when i went to play sims. and the usb port on the right side is broken. i'm so frustrated. everyone was like apple is so fantastic it's the greatest ever, never had any problems. WHATEVER. that's the biggest crock of crap i've ever heard. stupid apple people.

it's been fun to reminisce about old stuff with people lately, too. that's always so much fun when you can think of all of the things that have happened to get you to where you are right now. what a crazy roller coaster my life has been. i'm so tired, though, and it's hard to stay motivated on anything. but we're dealing with that slowly, but surely. i've got more stuff to take care of. off i go!

Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass,
it's about learning to dance in the rain.

i now officially own sims 3, thanks to tyler! i'm so excited, but i had to stop playing. i was up WAY too late last night, and he said i to be in bed by 10pm. which was a few minutes ago, but i had to quit and take some time to check all of my stuff. it's pretty fun, but definitely a lot to get used to, and a lot to learn!

today we went to tyler's cardiologist, and well that was exciting, to say the least. he has another appointment tomorrow, but it's for his wrist with his primary. and well, that was really the high points of the day! other than what i posted online, and the e-mails i got in response. time for sleep. goodnight!

i've become a little bit of a craig's list fanatic.

i'm selling anything i can think of to get money to help out myself, and my daddy in these times of need. there is really a lot of things around here that don't necessarily do us any good, so why not make a bit of a profit? it's much easier than setting up a yard sale. especially in this heat, that's NO FUN at all!

so far i've listed:
♥dad's old atari
♥my fox riding pants (SO sad i grew out of them!!!)
♥my old mountain bike

to be listed:
♥more bikes
♥sega genesis & games
♥playstation & games
♥dirtbike tires

edit: i got an email about the atari and the bike. he wants pictures of the bike, so i will send them to him tomorrow!

hello, july!

life right now feels so off for me. i just don't feel like i'm anywhere near where i need to be. && i'm struggling it much more than i had ever imagined. nothing feels like it's in place lately, and i just don't feel okay about anything. i'm so down on life, and have no motivation for anything. nothing is bringing me joy like it normally does, and i can't get excited about anything. i need/want to feel normal again. i just don't feel good right now, and it's really hard to deal with.

i need to catch a break, i need something amazing to happen, i need a miracle!

"I believe we write our own stories and each time we think we know the ending, we don't. Perhaps luck exists somewhere between the world of planning, the world of chance and in peace that comes from knowing you just can't know it all. You know, life's funny that way. Once you let go of the wheel, you might end up right where you belong."
♥
"I believe that imagination is stronger than knowledge, that myth is more potent than history. I believe that dreams are more powerful than acts, that hope always triumphs over experience, that laughter is the only cure for grief. But above all, I believe that love is stronger than death."

&& she talks about you like you put the stars in the sky.

i forgot just how much i loved this man. watching the first fast and the furious helps me to remember. :)

going to get pizza, pasta, and cheese breadsticks with tyler & garrett.

Jordin Sparks - Battlefield
T-Pain & Taylor Swift - Thug Story
Keri Hilson - Knock You Down
Shinedown - Second Chance
Kenny Chesney - Out Last Night
Brad Paisley - Then (not a good video)

first off, can i just say that i burnt my grilled cheese today, and it was still fantastic? can you ruin a grilled cheese? is that even possible? i think not.

.shower (DONE!)
.buy hair ties (DONE!)
.chemistry lab (DONE!)
.lunch with tyler (DONE!)
.clean the bathroom (DONE!)
.watch harry potter 3 (DONE!)
.chemistry homework (DONE!)
.check chemistry grades (DONE!)
.harvest & plant my farm (DONE!)
.drop package off at fed-ex (DONE!)
.paint fingers (DONE!)/toes(DONE!)
.finish 2009 SH&B reconciliations (DONE!)
.chemistry 60 question m.c. take home test (DONE!)
.get stuff together to sell online for daddy (IN PROGRESS...)
.teach dad how to use his FB
.sweep & mop bathroom floor
.rock wall climbing w/tyler
.library
.order thermapak & mail in old fan
.shop for dad's father's day present
.chemistry 2 question essay take home test (DONE!)
.chemistry lab (DONE!)
.drs appointment with bfff (DONE!)
.petsmart (DONE!)
.macbook to apple (DONE!)

i know my birthday is a couple months from now, but i've never had a birthday list, and this year i do, and everyone is happy about that, so i will put it on here, and add to it if need be!

-a pair of tom's shoes.
-pink thermapak for macbook.
-fmylife book.
-iPod touch update.
-the last word board game.

i just found the coolest website for blogger templates. there are so many i could have a new one every day for a year...YES! :) makes me very happy. i tanned today for about 45 minutes, and i'm BURNT but it will turn into a tan. i'm already really tan, somehow, and it's only june!

thermapak<33
buy this for me, please? thank you! :) haha. tyler is going to buy this for me as soon as he figures out how much money he has. it's not soon enough, though! :(

i'm definitely buying this when i get my job, i can't wait! it looks awesome, and i remember when mom bought me the very first one when it came out, i played it for days and days on end. :) this and active will be my first purchases as a worker. haha.

i got a job interview set up for tomorrow at 1:30 at CHW for the OCR position. it's not exactly what i want to be doing right now, but i don't have much room to be turning down jobs right about now. so like dad said, i will go, and see what's up, and go from there. :)

this is my new favorite thing ever. you don't have to buy gum forever. haha. i got a pack while brother and i were at target getting shampoo and car air fresheners.
i got this today, too. the pink one. it will be perfect for going out! i can't wait.

today i got a lot done. helped dad with bills, i went shopping with mom, cleaned my room, cleaned out my truck(totally deep cleaned it), finished the 2nd harry potter book(tawnya and i decided a couple weeks ago we would read them all and watch the movies), went to target and got some stuff, finished and submitted my lab report, cleaned lasagnas cage, umm. i think that's it? i don't remember. now i'm going to watch harry potter and the chamber of secrets. goodnight<3.