this world is ours - let's make it beautiful

so i realize it has been entirely too long since i last posted. i have moved in an gotten through three weeks of classes. i have already managed to fail my first chemistry exam. my dad is really disappointed, and i hate myself more than i can explain. i'm really disappointed, and it feels terrible knowing i let him down. tyler took me out shopping for valentine's day today, and he bought me an asu softball bracelet, and this cute hair tie. i really couldn't find anything else i wanted. then later we went out and he bought me this cute pajama dress from macy's! :) now i'm sitting here falling asleep. a few days ago my truck overheated, and we had to fix that. stupid truck. and last night i played in my first two softball games with the team. we lost the first by a run and won the second by ten. :) it was an awesome experience being back on the field, and i'm so glad to be on a team with such awesome people. tomorrow i'll be going to bookstar to get this chemistry helper book, and then i will probably head home earlier than usual to do a lot of homework and studying. oh and tyler got my hair colored, too! it's a darkish-light brown, and i love it. the bottom is the cherry something again, but because the top is so dark you can't really tell. mom hates it, dad isn't sure, but i LOVE it so much. well i really am too tired to post anymore. happy valentine's day! time to go try on that nighty.

i move tomorrow. to my new house - for good. i've been there twice with family since thursday to get everything set up. today mom and i did a little of my basic grocery shopping. now it's my turn to step up and be a big girl & move. stressful, is the best word i can use to describe it. these last days have been crazy. they have really made me realize how much i hate chad johnson. it's disgusting. i mean i've always had little reasons here and there, and personal reasons, but all of this other stuff is just pushing it over the edge. but let's not get into that. i haven't had any time to post in here lately. i've been so busy packing and moving and stressing and being sick. UGH. but after tomorrow i think everything will start to smooth out a bit. i've been so tired i could pass out by like 6pm, it's hard not to, actually. like right now i'm dead tired. but i'm trying to ignore it the best i can. i'm so tired though, and i haven't been feeling very well at all. stress, i guess? i don't even know. the cardinals played the championship game today, and kicked BUTT! it was an amazingly stressful game and we won and we will be going to the superbowl - first time EVER! yay. i can't wait for that game. i'm listening to my all american rejects cd. i haven't had much time to listen to it, but jason and i bought all american rejects & linkin parks newest cds and traded and i love it. :). i don't know what else to talk about. i guess i will just have to post tomorrow about how being in the house alone is!

i just had the best night of dreams in my life. i have never woken up so happy, ever. =D

i have completed and submitted my fafsa for 2008-2009 today. i also got some scholarship applications printed so i can get those in, too. i'm in need of money. we don't have much, and i don't like to see my dad struggle this way. i'm going to do what i can to help him out, even if he doesn't want me to get a job, and to just focus on school!

i love my daddy. he posed for this picture with me. i couldn't even get tyler to take a picture with me. he's such a ham, and SO good at smiling and looking cute for pictures. =D. today the cardinals played their first playoff game of the season and did amazing. it was such a great game and i've never had that much fun watching a football game. dad and i were yelling like crazy. we dropped tyler and mo off at the stadium(i wanted to go, but we couldn't afford another ticket), and then we went to cabela's and to the grocery store. after that we watched the game and then started on dinner. went and picked up the boys with brother, got home and mom was asleep, and cooked the herbed goat cheese stuffed shrimp. dad and tyler LOVED it. i don't like shrimp, but the stuffing was amazing, and i will use it on bread and stuff too, now, it was great. i was up 'til 3AM this morning playing spore. it came in the mail yesterday, and i am OBSESSED. it's such a fun game. tomorrow i have to start working on dad's webpage. but for now i'm going to go lay down and relax, while tyler plays COD5 and maybe i'll play some of my game. 

becoming jane was a great movie. i really enjoyed the story line and the characters. it has really made me want to read all of Jane Austen's novels. it was up and down and i liked that about it - it didn't have a super predictable happy ending like most of the movies i watch - (just ask tyler, if they don't live happily ever after, i'm VERY disappointed and automatically hate the movie.) but this movie didn't end the way i had expected at all and that was a great style for me. i am going to watch the curious case of benjamin button and bedtime stories today, as well. this online movie place to watch movies that are still in theatre is my favorite. =D

this is just going to be a quick post about the last two days. yesterday while i was shopping for mexico stuff with mom john called and pretty much fired me - i said it was okay that i had to quit anyways, but it was quite the shock. it was alright, though. just sucks because it was a lot less money now than i thought i would have before i move. this morning at 2AM dad decided to look into the killings in mexico i have been telling him about - when he finally found out that i was serious and it was really happening, he backed out on the trip and said it wasn't worth our lives to risk it. so we are all here and safe - instead of in mexico. it sucks because i was really excited, but at the same time i respect his decision. tyler and i went to get fuddruckers for lunch, and then went to blockbuster to return our movies and get burn after reading because mom wanted it and animal crossing: city folk for wii, because i've been waiting to play it forever. not sure yet if i'm all that thrilled or not. i just want my spore to come so i can play! but that's not going to happen for a few days. i've got a few books that should be here friday too, since there isn't any mail. we went and got our hair cut after, and then dad, tyler, and i went to Bevmo. i got this bottle of ale because it had a cute owl on it, a bottle of jolt, and he got me a bottle of hypnotiq. so tonight should be fun, haha. may as well have fun being 21, right? right now the boys are playing baja and i'm waiting for dinner. brats, it is! i think i'm going to go bead, or work on my lion latchhook, i'm not positive. happy new year, everyone!

cet mar aquarium will be a new visiting place for us this mexico trip. meghan pennell told me about it a couple days ago and ever since then i've been super excited. apparently it's right down the street from where we've been staying for 13 years and we've never gone. i talked to dad and he said definitely. and i'm so happy, it's going to be great. there's a sea lion named arthur, and they all jump out of the holes in the cages and play with you and steal the food you have in your hand. not to mention the extremely large sea turtles that are there that you can feed and play with, that's going to be awesome. the pictures i've seen show them to be very big. =D it's going to be a great trip. 

i have decided that health willing, i would like to go into the peace corps. once i am finished with my degree. i would like to take what i have learned and help others who don't have very many resources to get the nutritional health they need to become happy and healthy, and live longer, more fulfilling lives. i want to make a difference to people who otherwise wouldn't have a chance at the nutritional help they need. nutrition is one of the biggest causes of illness for the people in other countries, and i want to fix it. 

i was spending some time reviewing my DARS report at ASU, and it's so interesting seeing how everything i've done so far at PC has transferred over and what i still have left to finish. it sucks because most of what i have left is science stuff. there are nutrition courses in there, but the big stuff is all chemistry, microbiology, biochemistry, anatomy, and all of that kind of stuff. i only have 39 more credits that i need to fulfill though, and dad and i did the math, if i take 15 credits a semester i'll be done in less than two years. we had planned on two. but we will see how all of that works out. we need to get the payment made to williams campus housing today, too. because we don't want that to be late. i have a 3.68 GPA in my major, but only a 2.0 in my general studies. that's only because i got a C in beatles at ASU, and i think that's what they counted that for. but like dad and i were saying, i got a 3.00 for the semester at PC and a 2.o0 for the semester at ASU, if you combine those, that's a 5.00, and that makes me a genius, pretty much. =D. time to shower, pack, clean, and work.

this is lasagna. she's my guinea pig, and i need to find her a really good home. i want to keep her so much, but i just can't. i thought we found her a home but they brought her back, allergies i guess. so now i'm left to the chore of finding her another home, somewhere she will be safe, and happy, and healthy. it is so sad that i have to let her go, but i really can't have her when i move, and my dad seriously doesn't want her here for my mom to take care of everyday. so i don't know what to do? i just want her to go somewhere special. and loving.

this was yesterday. tyler took us to play in the snow in flagstaff. although it was extremely cold, it was a great time. i've never really had a chance to play in the snow, and even though i couldn't walk too well in it, and i fell a lot, it was exciting. we are planning on going back soon, hopefully at the beginning of the year.